Saturday, April 4, 2015

Abstraction

I objectify women. I also objectify men. I objectify many things in my life.

But what is objectifying?

It's simply a form of abstract thinking. Abstraction is an important tool in our understanding of the world. We are naturally symbolic creatures, creating symbols to represent situations, memories, people, future outcomes, etc.

Here are some examples of abstract thinking:
  •   Breaking situations down to economics.
  •   Determining the value someone brings to your life.
  •   Having hookups, each serving a sexual purpose for you.
  •  Creating the abstract concept (with legal recognition) of marriage in order to properly raise offspring.
  •   Determining the optimal way to pass in your genes.
  •   Understanding social interactions and power dynamics.  

This type of thinking is freeing. It allows you to break down things to their simple value. It allows you to see your house as shelter, food as sustenance, girls as potential mothers and/or sexual fulfillment.

We discuss the economics of sex. We ask ourselves what value we bring to women. We determine which food to put into our body and which habits of contracting our muscles yield the optimal method to achieve our goals.

Heed this warning, however. Too much abstract thinking could be used as a defense mechanism, in order to hide from dealing with the fear of concrete interactions. Concrete interactions consist of the day-to-day interactions with the women in your life. The sensations of sex being pleasurable. Shooting the shit with your bros or your girl.

If you are using abstraction to avoid the pain of your girl possibly rejecting you, of the possibility of someone with whom you are enjoying a good time hurting you, then you are not in control of your own life and you are weak. If that is the case, then your time attempting understanding these interactions is simply a defense mechanism because you are scared of the concrete feeling of rejection which may accompany the concrete feeling of enjoying an interaction.

You can abstract people into the role you play, the value you bring, the value she brings, and the economics of the situation. But abundance means that you can enjoy the concrete interactions, and recognize that if shit goes south, you'll drop a bitch and move on for someone else to enjoy. Both able to enjoy what they bring to your life, and to also enjoy the concrete interactions.

It is freeing to be able to abstract interactions away, but it's even more freeing to both abstract interactions away, and not be afraid of the concrete dynamics. Don't limit your experience to only abstract thinking (usually new readers) or only concrete interactions (usually detractors who despise our "objectification").

Don't be weak. Embrace both, and enjoy the true freedom of abundance.

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Friday, January 23, 2015

Mental Trick: How Would You Fail?

This is a mental trick I used to use frequently when I was first breaking out of the blue-pill mentality and figured it might help out some brethren.

The trick is simple: you simply ask yourself how you'd get what you don't desire.

For example, with fitness. Perhaps you've been struggling with diet fads over the years, have made minimal gains, but are frustrated. Maybe you justify eating that one extra slice of pizza, and feel guilty about it afterwards, or rationalize it as "living a little".

Simply pretend that you wished to get fat. Or get skinny and weak. Or get bulky but unattractive. Or whatever you don't want to do. What would you eat? How would you act?

This will start your brain to really tune in to your instincts. You'll realize that you know deep down what sort of behavior will lead to the goal you don't want. That's easy. You'll realize what sort of lethargy, food, exercise level, etc. will get you away from your goal and towards other non-desired goals. Then it will help you realize which "direction" each action will lead you: towards or away from your goals.

This sounds simple and obvious, but it's powerful. Sometimes we have a hard time honing into what we should do, since we are attached to the outcome. By imagining what you'd do to get away from your goal, it's easier to realize what actions will lead you towards your goal.

Some examples:
  • What sort of behavior would lead to women cringing at your actions?
  • If you wanted to get rejected by women at a bar, how would you act? How much of an ass, how much of a pussy, etc., would get you rejected by women if you wanted?
  • If you wanted people to be unattracted to you, how would you dress?
  • If you wanted a business to fail, how would you spend your days? How lazy would you have to be?
  • If you want to fail a class, what would you do? How much class would you skip? How much would you study?
  • If you wanted to get divorce raped, what sort of woman should you look for to marry? What traits would she have?
  • If you wanted to be a middle age depressed man, what sort of life decisions would lead you to that?
  • Ad-nauseum.

Don't dismiss this as "obvious" and just say "Hey, DeepThrill, why don't you just ask yourself what you do want, you idiot!?".

Your subconscious is tricky and will rationalize, hamster, etc., because it's attached to the outcome of the goal. The minute you actually want something to succeed, and in some deep down sense believe that you need it to succeed to be happy, you will not be able to think clearly about it.

But when you ridiculously ask yourself how you'd get fat and have your business or coursework fail, you might realize that you're doing that with your daily actions more than you realize, and rationalize it as "relaxing cuz it's necessary."

You know how to achieve your goals, deep down, instinctually, and this will help you tune into those instincts.

This helped me a bunch when I was just starting to gain some confidence and achieve my goals, and maybe it'll help somebody else.

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Thursday, January 22, 2015

Might is Right

Background

This post is going to be a summary of some viewpoints presented in the book Might is Right: Survival of the Fittest written by pseudonymous Ragnar Redbeard. It contains some red pill themes throughout, and is notoriously controversial and written in a harsh tone that would make most modern "men" blush.

It's important that you keep in mind that this book was written in 1890. It contains many hard truths, and yet also many foolish fallacies, equating man as simply another animal in a Darwinian struggle. The wikipedia entry has good introduction.

I am not necessarily personally advocating all of these views, but rather presenting the author's premise.

Premise

The book essentially makes the claim that force and power is the ultimate goal. It advocates Darwin's survival of the fittest, and discusses how humans are breeding themselves into oblivion.

  • Love in sexual relationship, Power in social adjustments, Polarity and Magnetism in physics, Gravitation in astronomy, and Might in ethics, are exact synonyms - 'the Persistence of Force'.
  • Heriditary virtues can only be maintained, by keeping them in constant use.
  • Each molecule, each animal, fights for its life. You must fight for yours, or surrender.
  • Man is part and parcel of the animal kingdom and he cannot escape from draconic ordinances
  • During the whole course of human history, there is not upon record, one authentic instance wherein a subjugated people has every regained property-holding Liberty, without first butchering its tyrants, thereafter confiscating to its own use the lands and realized property that previously had been in the possession of its defeated foes and masters.
  • Inequality is summed up in the scientific axiom "inferior organisms succumb, that superior organisms may survive, propagate, and possess."
  • To solemnly proclaim that "all men are created equal" is as stupid and unscientific as to assert that all dogs, cattle, apes, and trees are created equal.

Controversial

Racism and a nod to genocide, as well as misogyny, are rampant throughout this book. Given the underlying premise of maximizing human breeding, it would naturally flow its logic towards things such as control and eugenics.

  • Are all men really brethren? [in discussing racism]
  • What proof is there that the brotherhood-of-man hypothesis is in accordance with nature? [in discussing genocide]
  • Woe unto him... if ever these lovable creates [women] should break loose from mastership, and become the rules or equals of Man (But that is impossible)
  • A woman is two-thirds womb. The other third is a network of nerves and sentimentality.
  • Women's noblest occupation is... to breed men.
These are the "milder" of the more controversial pieces, and I'd rather not write the harsher ones them here. Buy the book for yourself if you want more of this.


On Modern Society

(Keep in mind this book was written in 1890)
  • Personal cowardice is the great vice of our demoralized age. Cowardice is corroding the brain and blood of our race, but men have learnt to disguise this terrible infirmity, behind the canting whine of "humanity" and "goodness".
  • "Liberty, Equality, Fraternity" those three great lights of Modern Democracies are three colossal Falsehoods.
  • Personal liberty is very nearly unknown and any citizen who dares to think in direct opposition to the dogma of the Majority does so at the risk of his life, if he thinks too loudly.
  • Most Acts of Congress are the Machiavellian work of eminent rogues
  • Slay one man (in order to rob him) and you are a murderer. Slay a million men (in order to rob them) and you are a renowned general
  • My curse be upon the white-livered and the meek; the shameful dwindlings - who call themselves the "virtuous" the "law-abiding" the "righteous" the "godly" the "obedient ones"
  • Society is altogether a matter of convenience
  • When society becomes irksome to the strong they may dissolve it.
  • Society must exist... for companionship is natural... [but when] it develops into a synonym for social restraint, then it becomes a menace
  • Government and Society are two distinct entities, and care must be taken not to confound them.

On Morality

  • All ethics, politics, and philosophies are pure assumptions, built upon assumptions.
  • Freemen should never regulate their conduct by the suggestions of dicta of others, for when they do so, they are no longer free
  • Human rights and wrongs are not determined by Justice, but by Might. Disguise it as you may
  • Is the Golden Rule a rational rule? Is it not rather a menial rule - a coward rule - a best-policy rule? Why is it "right" for one man to do unto others?... Should he not combat them, does not that give them carte-blanche to injure and destroy him?
  • Is it reasonable to ask preying animals to do unto others as they would be done by? ... could they survive?
  • "Love one another" you say is the supreme law, but what power made it so?
  • Readers must distinctly understand that sexual morality is nowise condemned in these pages. In all sexual relationships "morality" is what strength decrees. [In discussing how sexual fidelity is an important moral to maintain]
  • Certainly it is not good strategy for a man to openly proclaim his loss of faith in conventional moralisms; if he desires to get-on in the world. A wiseling keeps his real sentiments on this point to himself - guards them as his own life. ["Think as you like but behave like others" from the 48 Laws of Power]
  • The man who plays "the game of life" in strict accord with certain cut and dried principles... is not likely to come out a winner. [Related to my post on Learn to Play the Game]
  • The man-animal can never be rendered absolutely "moral" because by nature he is as full of wiles as a fox
  • If all men were scrupulously honest, then honesty might be all right (although even that is questionable), but if one percent are deliberately dishonest, then it is assuredly all wrong. Under such resultant circumstances the "ninety nine" actually become victims of "the one".
  • Every age and nation must interpret Right and Wrong for itself. So must every man.
  • All arbitrary rules of Right and Wrong are insolent invasions of personal liberty

On Masculinity

  • Strong men are not deterred from pursuing their aim by anything. They go straight to the goal, and that goal is Beauty, Wealth, and Material Power
  • Every one who would be free must show his power
  • Each individual should think as he pleases ... without the least respect for what others think or do - the only limit to his actions being the materialized opposition he actually meets with
  • Cowards serve masters. Bold men make themselves Masters.
  • The real man must depend upon himself absolutely
  • A sensible man should never conform to any rule or custom simply because it has been highly commended by others, alive or dead.
  • The best fighters are the best race-producers.
  • The word "brutal" in real life means the reverse of effeminate. A man is brutal who will not turn the other cheek.

On Women's Nature

  • There is no other earthly passion so fiercely, savegely, egotistic, as sexual desire and it is the physical basis of all human "Love" - even the most ethereal and romantic.
  • American women's passion for marrying foreigners, arises more or less, from similar instincts.
  • The nerve cells of splendid feminines and resolute warriors vibrate in rhythmic unison... that neither "creed" nor "culture" has ever been able to eradicate.
  • When these poor miserable manlings [professors, liberal arts majors, essentially beta men according to the author] do happen (by some lucky chance) to get a woman, they make her life a torment
  • Without deception of some sort, a woman would have no defence whatever, against rivals, lovers, or husbands. We must not forget that women really hate each other - intensely.
  • Over intellectualism transfigures women into freaks. The more Animal Nature [femininity] a maiden posses; the more of a true woman she is - the better wife and mother she will make. Culture and refinement are horrible substitutes, for the grand old matronly virtues - beauty, naturalness, purity, maidenly hypnotism.
  • His daughters are controlled with equal vigor, are not permitted to mate with every strumous Dick, Tom, and Harry, that comes smirking along; but are "given away" to men who are born of good stock.

On Wealth

  • Next to the belted sword-swinger and the sturdy well-to-do athlete; the successful money-making "main of affairs" [businessman] is especially attractive to the average female mind. He also is a resolute professional fighter.
  • In such matters the female mind is preternaturally acute...in questions of marriage and love, she is an expert.
  • If a man possesses wealth (no matter how obtained) he can pick and choose among the most delightful darlings in the land
  • He also [businessman] climbs to success over his prostrate rivals.
  • The successful business man is able to support a family, and rear up his children in an environment of comparative freedom, and women are sharp to perceive this.
  • Other things being equal, women prefer a rich-man to a poor-man for a husband, and they are scientifically justified.
  • He who is without wealth amidst unlimited quantitites of it, is either a coward, a born slave, or a lunatic; and no self-respecting woman should marry such an imbecile.
  • Without being capable of logical reasoning, yet women intuitively comprehend that "there is oft a lack of courage in the race of [indebted] men."

On Sexual Market Place

  • Women of all ranks are still a marketable commodity. Whenever the supply exceeds the demand, they are straightway transmuted into ... concubines or "new women"... When few in number, they posses a certain proportion of selective influence.
  • When for every eligible man, there is a score of eligible women, their market value dwindles, and instead of "selecting" they become "the selected".
  • If legislative injunctions, and other bogey contrivances were wholly disregarded; then the Strongest and the Boldest would be fertilizing the pick of the best damsels per marriage.

On Hypergamy

  • Women instinctively admire soldiers, athletes, kings, nobles, and fighting-men generally, above all other kinds of suitors - and rightly so.
  • The difference between a man who rules in the Castle, and the other man who is chained in the castle-dungeon, is the difference between success and failure.
  • When average women find in Statute Law a "deliverer" and a "champion" more powerful than their husbands and brothers, they become both unfaithful and profligate - especially if "well educated".
  • The bolder and more aggressive men are, the more women of all classes admire them
  • Capitalists, kings, and presidents never take these servile hounds into consideration - nor do sensible women.
  • In sexual affairs, they [beta males] must of necessity, mate themselves with second-rate women - who cannot possibly find anything more to their tastes.

Conclusions

This book would likely never get published today. But it was used as a basis for The Satanic Bible. It has some comments on "modern society" in the 1890s which are still prevalent today. It takes an extremely harsh view of the world, dictating that "Might" and power are the ultimate goals in life, and any form of morality is simply a nuisance. It shows how men used to think about race, women, etc., from that time period, and which of those views have fallen out of favor. His prediction on the beta-ization of men seems to have come more or less true. I'm always interested in others' thoughts on these views.

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Sunday, November 30, 2014

No Nothing November - Day 30

Link to all my posts for #NoNothingNovember.

This is it. The final wrapup of #NoNothingNovember.

Sleeping:

Regarding my sleeping habits, forcing myself to wake up earlier was hugely useful for my productivity. After about two weeks, I started to naturally wake up earlier. I felt energized and got a lot done in the morning, and realized that my energy levels naturally start to wane around 14:30. It also had the positive effect of forcing myself not to waste time at night and not drink too much alcohol at night, since I knew such activities would hinder waking up the next day.

Smoking:

Regarding smoking weed, it's not something I consider a vice. It's something I can consider a vice, if I do it for recreational purposes. But if I smoke with a predetermined purpose (self-awareness, creativity for a business project, etc.), then it can be a tool, the way caffeine can be a tool. It does take some awareness and humbleness to recognize if I am smoking for recreation or for a purpose.

Meditation:

Meditation had the most positive effects on my life, and I feel like I am just scratching the surface. I feel more aware of my physical body and my mental state. Awareness itself is sometimes sufficient to change something, and it allowed me to choose whether to stay in such a mental state (or physical tension) or not. I'll describe what I've explored below.

Concentration Awareness:

I used concentration meditation for this. This involves focusing on an external object for as long as possible, such as a spot of paint on the wall. Concentrate. Your mind will start randomly "getting bored" and giving you thoughts. Every time a thought pops up, you refocus on the wall. At the start this will last maybe 10-30 seconds. Eventually with practice you'll get to a point where you can do this for many minutes. This will make you aware of your concentration, and also has been described by some as a "muscle" that you don't even realize you have until you have achieved the result.

Physiological Awareness:

I used body scan meditation for this. What I do is lie down flag and keep my eyes open. I focus on each piece of my body (foot, then calf, then thigh, etc.). You can tense the body part up, and untense it, to become aware of the tension feelings. You will eventually get to a point where you start becoming aware of more hormonal changes. You'll notice where the hunger feels, where the stress feels, where the joy feels, etc. Try to "chase down" the physiological feelings mentally.

Then, when you start to feel angry in the "real world" for example, you'll be aware of the physiological feelings. When you start to feel happy, you will be able to focus on it and increase it.
So once you are more aware of physiological hormonal feelings, this merges a bit with your mental emotional state. Which brings me to:

Mental Awareness:

I used mindfulness meditation for this. This involves sitting and letting any thought come into your brain. You don't fight it. You then "take a step back", and just acknowledge it as "interesting thought" and move on to the next one. This is sort of like amused mastery at your own mind. Eventually once you start dismissing more thoughts (similar to Concentration Awareness), deeper more emotional thoughts will start coming to the surface.

When combined with concentration awareness, you'll be able to focus your mental energy on the thoughts you want, for your emotions.

Emotional Awareness:

For this, you'll want to do a similar technique to the body scan meditation, where you tense the muscles and release. So you think of a memory in which you felt a strong emotion in the past. You try to feel the rage, or joy, or excitement, and then turn it off. You keep practicing this, and you'll be more aware and have more control over your emotions. The ultimate frame control.

Summary:

#NoNothingNovember was great for me to recognize certain vices which were holding me back, and increase my own discipline. Any excuse for self-improvement is something I fully embrace. I am much more particular about my daily actions. I now look at each action (even if it's just relaxing and watching a movie) as either self-improvement or not. I am much more deliberate about my actions, and have been using my time much more efficiently. For each moment, I make sure to ask myself what action would benefit me, and then do it.

Monday, November 17, 2014

No Nothing November - Day 17

Link to all my posts for #NoNothingNovember.

I have been traveling for business so I haven't had time to blog enough these past two weeks, but fear not, dedicated readers; I have not abandoned my #NoNothingNovember practices.

Sleeping

Waking up early every day has been hugely useful. I have been extraordinarily productive in the morning and by the time I'm into the late morning, the momentum from being awake for so long carries me along. By the mid-afternoon (around 14:30) I admittedly get more tired than usual, likely due to my body being conditioned to begin feeling tired after being awake for 8 hours and winding down the day. It's at this time I'll take a break from working to do some concentration meditation, walk outside to change my environment, or exercise. I am trying to reduce my dependency on caffeine but on difficult days I'll have a second cup of coffee. 

This has also forced me to go to sleep earlier each night, and in doing so I have come to realize that I have spent too many hours in the evening hours being unproductive. How productive am I really being from 21:00 to midnight? That yields several hours of wasted time in my day.

Again, I'll reiterate from Day 4 that alcohol really hinders my waking up early. As such, I have been drinking less, whether going out or at home. This has caused my fitness to improve, and any malaise feelings the next day from being hungover to be lessened. In addition, going out to bars and clubs while not being as drunk as everyone around me has had the interesting effect of having me observe more interactions and being more in control than those around me. It increases my mental acuity in these situations and has allowed for actually more fun and "productive" nights (in terms of hooking up and also learning and observing others' interactions). It also allows me to feel more in control of situations than the drunk people around me, and be more in control of my emotions and actions.

Cannabis

Okay, so I don't consider weed a vice anymore. I consider too much weed, or regular weed, a vice if it becomes an addiction. To me, smoking causes me to be more creating and less productive. So by not smoking, I have been much more productive. However, the level of creativity in my work has taken a slight hit. In addition, my self-awareness insights and breakthroughs through marijuana has also slightly decreased, although it is somewhat offset by meditation.

So while I feel empowered to know that I can easily put down cannabis if I choose (feeling more in control), I do want to use it as a tool in my arsenal, for both increased self-awareness and creativity. Limited amounts of weed, using it as a conscious tool, is what I will be pursuing once this month is over.

Meditation

Meditation is an ongoing process for which it takes more than a month to get the full effects. However, I have already noticed several benefits.

Concentration meditation has benefited me by increasing my focus in my current task. It also has the benefit of clearing my mind in moments of feeling overwhelmed with my work. Even a few short spurts of 5-minute concentration meditation (in which I clear my mind by focusing on an external object and refocusing whenever a thought enters my mind) is like a nice little boost of concentration or relaxation throughout the day. Longer periods of concentration meditation (15+ minutes) has allowed me to recognize some thoughts which were buried in my subconscious as they float to the surface.

Body scan and mindful meditation has benefited me by (obviously) giving me more awareness of my body. But while the direct effects would seem obvious, the indirect effects are interesting.


  • I have been able to focus on physical feelings of either anxiety, malaise, or tension. This awareness allows me to remove such feelings the more I explore them.
  • In addition, it has had the interest effect of viewing my body somewhat impersonally. I see my body in terms of a larger timeline as simply a tool used to achieve my goals. Sculpting it to become attractive, garner respect, and be strong enough for either defense or offense. Viewing my hands as tools to make more money. This detachment is an interesting feeling I am just beginning to explore.

Conclusions

Overall, #NoNothingNovember has had some interesting, positive effects on me. In addition, it has increased my confidence stemming from increased experience of my ability to give things up through sheer dedication. My journey towards self-actualization via self-awareness marches onward.

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

No Nothing November - Day 4


The oversleeping bit is becoming easier and easier every day. However, I've noticed that anytime I have more than 5 drinks the night before, waking up early is exceedingly difficult the next day. Yet I am still more productive throughout the day, and can use the morning more effectively, than when I was oversleeping.

With regards to cannabis, I am still not convinced that it does not benefit me. My creativity is slightly less than when I smoked a few times a week, although my drive is slightly more. It's a balance I will have to find as time goes on.

With regards to meditation, that has been going excellently. I begin my session with 15 minutes of concentration meditation which helps exercise my mental muscles of awareness, and calm any lingering thoughts from the day. I then begin a body scan, starting from my foot to my head, noticing and removing any tension as I proceed methodically. I then am in a relaxed state in which I can begin to notice how certain thoughts popping into my head elicit certain physiological states in my body. This allows me to choose which thoughts to follow and which thoughts to dismiss. I am noticing more subtle motivations, such as when I do not realize how much I am posturing or have unnecessarily used Powertalk throughout my day without realizing it (part of The Gervaise Principal, which I frequently try to apply to my business dealings).

Overall, I believe that without the motivation of #NoNothingNovember, I may have skipped some of these days meditating, and would have overslept and smoked more. I can see the thought process unfold throughout my head as it occurs, and I thoroughly enjoy the simple excuse of "It's November" to make myself more motivated.

Sunday, November 2, 2014

No Nothing November - Day 2


This is the second day of No Nothing November. The oversleeping bit is something I think with enough motivation I can easily overcome. The effects of not oversleeping, however, will likely be more pronounced on the weekdays. The fact that it's a Sunday means that not oversleeping didn't really affect my day much in terms of productivity. However, I have to admit waking up to a blowjob followed by sex while having some coffee is a nice easy way to jump start the day.

In regards to no cannabis use, I'm unsure how I feel about that being an actual vice. Skipping a day of cannabis is not a big deal for me since I don't smoke too often anyway. However, cannabis has allowed me to come to some self-realizations that simply would have taken too long to arrive at otherwise. After November, I may consider cannabis use as a semi-regular accelerator for self-improvement, as long as I don't end up becoming addicted and smoking daily.

The meditation has been interesting for the past two days. Yesterday, during my body scan meditation, I realized how much physical stress I feel throughout my body. I strongly believe that the first step to defeating something is to truly understand it. I need to 100% define the boundaries and extent of something such as physical stress before attempting to remove it. Simply saying "relax" completely dismisses the importance of understanding the how.

Today, during meditating, I tried to focus on each part of my body and become aware of any physical tension felt. It was actually difficult because due to waking up on time (and staying out late partying last night since it was Halloween weekend) meant I kept almost falling asleep. However, I remembered my concentration training, and focused on an external object in my room in order to stay awake and aware.

My plan is roughly to:
  1. Become aware of the physical stress throughout my body (body scan meditation).
  2. Work on systematically removing that stress from each part of my body (body scan + concentration).
  3. Become aware of the mental stress in my mind (mindfulness meditation).
  4. Work on systematically removing that stress (mindfulness + concentration).
I'm not sure how 3 and 4 will work, but what's interesting is that sometimes simply being aware of some automatic thought, motivation, or physical stress, is sufficient to have it begin removing.

Onwards we march towards self-actualization.